When writing I’d use a lower case g
To let the world know I didn’t trust or believe
That God Almighty existed or cared
Vile blasphemed curses sent towards air
Went back to my old ways feeling slick and wise
Used his name in vain refusing to apologize
Old posts still up as a testimony so others can see my journey isn’t fake far from phony
Friend I’ve been looking for acceptance
He told me I have it with him but I doubted asking questions
Sin beat me badly after following its suggestions
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Some days I’m up on a cloud reading and praising God
Other days I feel the Holy Trinity and I are at odds
Rush home from work defeated with all momentum depleted any stored faith defiled then deleted
If God is speaking I cannot hear cannot heed it
Seasick
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Writing in the dark swearing I’m completely lost while standing by the very entrance I’m seeking
Arms very short regarding any attempt to reach him
Grim future fears imagining wrath and indignation at the judgment seat fainting but when I wake up he’s still waiting with more
Consequences for my foolishness as I taste distance tonight and vomit only to scoop it up for tomorrow’s lunch
Just a hunch burning my hope-filled dreams by the bunch brunch bittersweet without sweetness and at the end
Who can win
Knocking nonchalantly whispering let me in let me in
Hearing no sir you’re covered in diseases it pleases us to ignore as much as your eyes blink you’ll stay sinking
Enemy tactics screaming he’s still a bastard
Running interference
Capital G although my circumstances surround without showing mercy.
Emotion Dough 