Emotion Dough

Threatening and scary, my daydreaming ways.

Will I stay focused? God, will I change?

Feeling far behind, trapped in a mirror mind, circling around circles.

Far from royalty, self stained purple.

Ocean living, floating in the unknown, want to give but all energy is gone.

Frustrated with myself.

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God, will I ever change?

Am I living life, waiting for the final buzzer to sound?

Am I living life, dizzy head going ’round, gone this round?

Is foolishness the air I breathe out?

Unfaithful, wicked and lazy, no.

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I used to smile after daydreaming.

Now, I dislike every dream.

Want to tell my wife I’m too flawed.

Scared I’m dragging her down in my failures.

And how does God see me? I’m scared to know.

Life is passing by, any progress I make is too slow.

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One day at a time Lord, one day.

I feel like cold scrambled eggs, not worth the wait.

But I’ll still pray and pray others are praying for me yeah.

Looking at tossing waves instead of my Savior today.

May I lean upon you? May I rest in your love?

God, I want to hear from you, and I can use a big hug.