Vanilla Coconut

Looking way offshore

Suppressing what I have close

Always a missing ingredient in my head


I have everything I need

Something deceptive whispering lies to me

What about an addition surely not an addiction

Lean into what you feel

Your understanding is the only real


Daily attacks

Thoughts disguised as facts

Wrong directions eroded tracks

Cup of hope and joy cracked

Marathon in a circle until crash


I’m not sure what to do

Any progress made feels like a fluke

Sick of self some days it’s all I can do to not puke


I want to disable every clock

Sit in a corner and tell God all my thoughts

Be open laying all my faults

At his feet in the light I’m never lost

Plus I can’t translate what I feel to anyone else


Am I doing anything right?

Looking hard but I’m without sight

Am I doing anything right?

Sometimes I feel a little dread regarding daylight.


Music that helps keep my mind on things above. Via Spotify.
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